it has been a year ++ since the last entry. so many things happened, not just things, big big things which i couldn't believe it happened all together in just a year! argh! suddenly there's a sign appear in my laptop - 'low disk space'..time to clean up some of the unused files. busan busan..
just recently, i lost the most beloved person in my life, the most important person in my life. yep, my mother. i read the previous entries and i talked about how my mother fight with her pain. and again, Tuhan testing (is this the rite word to use?) her again..hard to describe here but really, i felt so sorry to look at her for 1 and a half months at hospital. she was so determined to fight the pain but God loves her more.
2 months++ ago, she kept complaining about her pain at the back and her hip. we thought that was just normal 'sakit tua' but we were wrong when the result came out that she had cancer and it has spreaded to her lungs already..i was like..'berdosa ke aku as her daughter to keep saying to myself that it was just a normal pain, the one that she complaining?'..
we decided to keep the news from our parents. she was so excited about my wedding (yes, i got married. told u..so many BIG BIG things happened in a year)..we waited after my big day..3 days after groom's reception, she was warded. the plan was to do the test, to see how far the cancer has gone and find ways to reduce her pain.
i never missed a day to visit her at the hospital for +- 44 days..except things are different now. i used to spend the nights at hospital.
to be continued..
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